Tired Girl

This is day 5...

I slept until 9:46 am...it was either the darvocet I took last night, or the fact that at 2am I was up because my kids decided to watch tv at 100 decibles...

Stayed in bed until 1pm...

Called my littlest one in California...she is having fun

Went to eat at Caraba's Italian Restaurant...

Went to the market...

Came home...

Blogging...

Nothing else much today...feel a little anxiety want to get this out of me...and can't wait to...but I am going to California on Friday to see my mother and my family and some friends. To let them know what is going on. Also I am going to see my grandmother. She is suffering from Liver Cancer. Not sure what the next few months have in store for me...but I would like to see her before all of the stuff starts.

I think about the last 6 months of my life, and I don't know sometimes I think that I've felt really tired, and sometimes I felt so tired, as sick to my stomach...I wonder if it was that..emotionally I have been spent too. Actually since June 2nd 2006 my life has been a series of ups and downs..from almost dying because of 2 P.E.'s to a hugh blow up with his family (still don't speak) to Rob movin..etc. you all know the drill...

I decided that I want no stress in my life...If I have to have nothing, I would have nothing. I don't care. My job presently is so stressful, so I vow to myself: Stress free, exercise, control what I can, eat right, let things go, understand my illness.

What ever I have to do to live this way I will do. Because in the end it will save my life.

I need to.....