Tired Girl

Well, it is Monday morning on December 29th....and today I will go for yet another wonderful biopsy, and MRI...needles, contrast the whole shebang!

But I do believe that it will be ok. If it is the dreaded C again..lets hope it is a Second Primary...not mets.

But again I think that I am dreading the test more than the outcome actually! Funny how that happens.

Had one of my brother's friend call me Heather, what a sweetheart, she talked to me in the beginning way back in April. I will ring her back tomorrow probably.

Well 2008 has been a year of major highs and lows, but I do know for sure, that I am a different person than I was back in April, and May...before my surgery. I feel much less tolerant of the "stuff" in my life, ok maybe I shouldn't say tolerant, I should say more not sweating the small stuff. I appreciate much more my close family and friends, and I really will not allow any kind of stress in my life. Whether that be a person, or a job, or anything. I just need to let it all go, because it is that very thought of holding on to stress, holding on to arguments, pain, fear, that to made me in a weaker emotional state and contributed to everything that was in 2008.

My goal for this coming year, is to stay healthy, mind, body and soul. To surround me with people that are loving and caring and giving and thankful...I want to be in a healthy mind, body, spirit environment. This is my choice. I choose to surround myself with this to feed my spirit, and my health. I will not surround myself with anything else. No chaos, no stress, no fear, no arguments, just love and faith.

Sounds crazee huh? But honestly, yes there will be times when I am under stress, yes everyone gets there, but when it comes down to the core...I can still see my flame...steady and know that I am at peace.

Talk to you more soon......