Monday, May 26, 2008
Well tomorrow is the day...Surgery is set for 1pm in the afternoon at Mountain View hospital.
I was thinking last night that I'm so angry and just...you know why me and blah blah blah....that lasted for about 5 minutes because it is such a negative, loathing behavior, and that is not me...
There are so many other people around 250 thousand in the same boat as me...that pink boat! Of course mine is rather large, because I have a lot of support from family and friends and it would be covered with rhinestones and sequins... Of corse this whole boat is in my head and all...Usually when I think of things like certain objects...in my head...rhinestones and shiney stuff is usually thrown in the mix. I love girly pretty things like that..so my BC boat would be pink and pretty with rhinestones.
Ok so way off track... I'm often asked why do I blog..and especially my dad doesn't get it..he is so funny, he asks me why do people write down their thoughts for other people to read, and they are so long..and actually boring sometimes? While watching a movie the other day...P.S. I Love You....which I loved by the way.. a line in the movie that Hillary Swank was saying as she was walking backwards talking to her future husband as they just met on a dirt road in Ireland with nothing but emerald green hills surrounding them:
"All I know is that if you don't figure out the something you'll will stay ordinary..it doesn't matter if it is a work of art or a taco or a pair of socks. Just create something new and there it is...and it's you.. out in the world, outside of you and you can look at it or hear it or read it or feel it and you know a little more about you, a little bit more than anyone else does."
That made perfect sense to me! It was perfect. To me, that is what IT is about. So in writing this blog or anything it is about finding out a little bit more about me each time, while sharing with the world...
It is only by living completely in this world that one learns to have...fill in the blank...faith, hope, wisdom, love, peace, life, joy, strength, pain, understanding...and journey's.
Take a look at the pretty flowers...wouldn't that be great if we had rainbow roses??
One more entry tomorrow morning...then I will be off for a couple of days...
Love you all,
Stacy
